being the mom

This week held handfuls of beautiful moments.....even before mother's day....I loved mother's day this year....and my stomach wasn't in knots with guilt about how I wish I was better at this...maybe it's because I am getting older and not terrorizing myself with all of those horrid "C-words" comparing, categorizing, competing, criticizing and condemning myself all the time over my weaknesses......I have just sort of chilled out and decided to do my best every day......and....every once in awhile....things happen that make me feel on top of the world with a #1 MOM mug in my hand.

Max had a house in his mind for his 1st grade project...he talked about it for a week before we started...and we got everything ready. For just about a week, we would work on it a little bit each night....he would talk to me every morning before school about what we needed to do next. He is a kid who takes everything very very seriously.....he is diligent and calculated and he finishes anything that he starts. I have learned a lot from him.....well...we made the house, and it was such a fun time...but my heart really melted when we were done and he wrote his little report about it.....


This is my house project. Me and my mom made it. It took itleast a week to make. It was very fun to make. I made it out of cardbord and wood. I also made it with hot glue. I smashed rocks with a hmmer to hook to it.
You see, there was a long stretch of years when I had to have a nanny do stuff like this for me. I was too 'busy' to make trips to the store to buy supplies....to spend the hours going over all the pieces and cutting them out and painting them....I knew I was missing out, I really did...but I had no idea HOW I WAS REALLY MISSING OUT. Every day I feel like I am waking up just a little bit more...stepping into this incredible life that God put right in my lap....so thankful that I finally figured it out....I love being the mom....I love it....it's hard and it's demanding but man oh man....I love it.

Comments

[Lizzy]

So, I just started checking your blog because I love to see the inspirational/ thoughtful things that you write, but mostly because I'm secretly hoping for pictures and stories of your beautiful family. I loved the picture of all of you on the couch in the field! You have no idea how incredibly happy it makes me that you are having all of those precious moments with your sweet children! Max and Mitch made me want little boys more than anything, and now that I'm having one, I know I'll be frequently reminded of them as he grows. I miss everyone so much and think of each of you often!

[Elaine]

wow...great post.
I love being the Mom too!!
Thanks for sharing.

[k]

Oh, I am so very happy for all the joyful moments you are having. Such a wonderful mother...and such lucky, blessed kids to have you...

[lu]

oh, that is wonderful. what a great house and I love the new look of the blog!